When do you know its Right?

As a girl when you are in school by the age of 12 you have already planned your wedding, when you are going to get married and when you are going to have your first child. Now when you are young you choose an age of 27 like I did.

When I was in high school and I used to chat to my friends I used to say, I would like to be married by the age of 27 and have my first baby by the age of 28.

Well, I am 28 and no wedding and no baby.
Yet I look back now and think man what was I think choosing to do all of this at such a young age.

I am happy, in a wonderful relationship and yes I can see myself marring this man and having his babies. But when do you know when is it the right time.

When ever he is asked the question, he immediately changes the topic. I have never once heard him answer this question unless he is talking to me but I would like to hear him tell someone else.

We have spoken about it, and at the moment with both of us trying to get our degrees and getting our lives together the baby is on hold until I am about 30 (which isn’t that long away).
But he still won’t answer the question the big question.

I find myself walking into Ackerman’s or any department store and going straight to the baby section or even going into Baby Boom and looking at cots and prams.
I can hear myself making all the cooing noise and sitting there wishing and hoping.

I mean I am not looking at getting married right now or even yesterday but just to get a ring and have that promise made to me.
I am not even asking for a huge hunk of rock to be put on too my finger which some people might find amazing because some one once told me I am a money grabber and yet I am yet to date a guy for his money.

As I look back at my group of friends from school and here today I am the only unmarried girl out of the whole group and there were about 12 of us all together, and yet they all said I would be the first to get married, well I showed them didn’t I.

And yet I think, look at my parents they got married when my mom was only 23 and they have been married for 36 years and they are perfectly happy and then I look at my aunt who was also married young and then got divorce when her son was about 5 years of age. And she has dated so many guys and yet to found the right one.

I think I even proved it to me parents who thought when I came back from the U.K. that I would have a Bun in the Oven and yet I did come back engaged but no bun in the oven so they were quite shocked.

And now I stand back and I look at some of the people I know who have been dating for 6, 9 years and they are still not engaged but are quite content with their relationship as it is. And then I see some girls who got married straight out of school or at least a year out of school and today they are divorced with kids and where have they got in life.

So is it right for me to watch and let my biological clock keep ticking and be happy with the fact that I have a loving boyfriend and not all the other extra goodies or do I push to get what I want.

Some people have the idea that getting married is sacred and should be done in the eyes of the Lord, so in other words you should get married in a church but isn’t the Lord constantly watching you so it shouldn’t matter where you get married whether it be on the beach, in a Game reserve or in the Botanical Gardens.
Or is marriage just a signed piece of paper with and extra wedding ring?


SO What is Right?